Went Pula Ubin to cycle with boyfriend & friends on Monday 19th October. But half way through, i almost had a black out & almost fainted. Sigh, i felt like i'm a spoiler of the day. But luckily after i sat down & rest for awhile, i felt so much better (: Also on Tuesday 20th October, went to teo heng ktv with sikai didi, baby, baby's mum & sister & his sister's boyfriend to sing & at the meantime also celebrate me & baby's first month anniversary early. Our actual date is on 28th but we celebrate earlier cause on the 25th i'm going overseas already. && Its till the 5th November. So dont miss me too much yeahs peeps ! Hahaha:DDD



I Love My Romeo, Mr Lim Wei Xuan <33

Baby, no matter how much wrong doings you had done to me, i'll still forgive you ok. I really hope & believe that you did not meant to do that to me. You said you dont wish to leave me so am i. Therefore, i really hope that you would not let me down anymore. Really ! At times i really thought of giving you up but i did not because i believe no one in this world is totally perfect. Each of us have a weakness, so i believe you deserves given another chance. && This time i really hope you would treasure the chance i'd given you. You deserves my love, care & concern. Baby, no matter how good or bad you treat me, in my eyes, you're still the best (: I want you to be my legal husband in future so as to care for you, love you & take great care of you :D I hope that i could take up all those wife responsibility so as to be good wife of yours in future :D Baby, i'd sort out my thinking already, from now on, you wanna do what just go ahead. All i can say is that when you feels happy, i'm happy & glad too. Even though you neglect me in future, i'll also tolerate everything so as not to quarrel with you as i dont want us to fall out just because of a small matter. Baby, I had also made up my mind that i wont keep annoy you by kept calling you & msg you. I would be waiting for you msg & call me instead. So if you feels like contacting me then contact me. If you dont wish to, its ok. I wont force you either. But of course i'll be glad if you could be like last time keep contacting me which i don't dare to put so much hope in it. Sigh. I know i'm annoying, i'm sorry. Perhaps I'm the one whom is useless. What i can do is to hide underneath my blanket & cry all out during the nights. & I know i'm aint perfect at all. How good or bad you wanna treat me, I've already no say in it. Just go ahead & do what you wish for. I know to you, brothers are the first priority Sigh, but its alright though. But i really wants you to know that i've really been trying to be a good girlfriend. I dont know if you feels this way or not, but i'm really trying. In fact, i've been giving in alot alot ! All i could is to give in & tolerate. Yes indeed, the feeling is rather painful. My heart seriously do aches alot when come to think of it. But i dont mind, its all because, seeing you smile makes my mind feels at ease :D I'm Sorry & I love you baby ♥





So Fortunate To Have You As My Romeo (:

When I first met you
I felt like I had known you forever,
telling you my secrets
and what I didn't want ever.
you listened to me
I bet you thought I'd never end,
who would have thought
we would become more than just friends.
Over a period of time,
I got to know the real you.
A boy so caring and gentle,
with a heart so true.
You've survived your life
with hurt and loneliness by your side.
I told you I'd never leave
because of the feelings I have inside.
I know you
like no one I have ever known,
and sometimes I wonder
what I'd do if you were gone?
So I have decided
time answers all.
If it is meant to be
time will remove the wall.
I love the way we are together,
you can always make me smile.
Meeting you has changed my life
and I really love you so,
the feelings I feel for you
I am not going to let go.
Remember me always
and I will too.
I always think of
me and you.
To love is to share life together
to build special plans just for two
to work side by side
and then smile with pride
as one by one, dreams all come true.
To love is to help and encourage
with smiles and sincere words of praise
to take time to share
to listen and care
in tender, affectionate ways.
To love is to have someone special
one who you can always depend
to be there through the years
sharing laughter and tears
as a partner, a lover, a friend.
To love is to make special memories
of moments you love to recall
of all the good things
that sharing life brings
love is the greatest of all.
I've learned the full meaning
of sharing and caring
and having my dreams all come true.
I've learned the full meaning
of being in love
by being and loving with you.
ILOVEYOU,LIMEIXUAN ! <33



&& ALSO LASTLY BUT NOT LEAST, TO MY DEAREST SISTER, FELICIA THAM MUN YEE :

When your sad and depressed,I will be here to put a smile on your face. When your angry and frustrated,I will be here to calm you down.When your hurt and in tears,
I will be here to wipe them away and mend the pain.When your lonely and have no one,
I will be here to comfort you.When your feeling unloved and unwanted,I will be here to tell you how very important you are.When your having a bad day and need to lash out,I will be here to let you let off steam, you can yell at me.When there is something on your mind that you need to say,I will be here to listen and understand.
When your lost in confusion,I will be here to help you figure things out.When you feel like your going crazy,I will be here to bring you back to sanity.When you are so overwhelmed and need to get away,I will be here with open arms so we can runaway together.When your scared and frightened,I will be here to protect you and make you feel safe.When you are full of worries,I will be here to worry with you.
I promise that I will always be here for you, my dearest & best sister i've ever had :DDD Sister, i just wished to tell you that in life there are going to be obstacles that will cause interference,but we must learn to overcome these challenges & grow stronger.In life there are fears that will hold us back from what we want,but we must learn to fight them with the courage from within.&& Sister, Never stop trying or give into sorrow.Never stop pushing away negative thoughts that make you feel sad. Never stop looking at the all the miracles we have had. Never stop loving the ones you hold dear.Never stop giving or give into the fear.Never stop smiling and look forward to each new day.Never stop shining in your own special way.Never forget that all storms will clear.Remember brighter tomorrows are always near. Sister, i know you're a strong girl, therefore i believe you would not fall & concede defeat easily isnt it (: Remember, i'll always be by your side no matter what ! I love you felicia thum mun yee sister <33

Labels: I love you my dear romeo. Muacks.

Pictures Of The Day :DDDDD



Wish Is Fulfilling, I'd Found My Romeo (:

To My Dearest Baby, LIMWEIXUAN <33

When I see you, you got me flying' high
I feel like butterflies in my tummy
You got me looking' at no other guy
Then later we kiss and I say yummy
Look me in the eyes and say "I Love You"
Then hold me tight while we spin round n' round
I realize how much I have to value
That the love I have for you is profound
When we are together I am like "wow"
That I forget about this crazy place
And I feel like leaving with you right now
And without leaving any little trace
You know that it is so very, very, very true
What you make me feel baby, I Love You!
You look at me as if I'm the only girl around
You make me feel important and never let me down
You've showed me how to live
How to smile. what to say
You've showed me what its worth
To love someone each and every day
So this poem goes out to you
For everything you've done
And I hope now you understand
That baby, Your the one !
It makes me happy just being by your side
All these feelings I just cant hide
You’ll always be in my heart
Cant bear the pain when we are apart
Nobody is as special as you are to me
I hope you are beginning to see
Just how much I care for you
And all my feelings will always be true
I can't describe how much I care
But when you need me I'll be there
To wipe those tears when you are sad
To make you happy when you are mad
All these things I can really do
Just remember I'm thinking of you baby!!
When I first meet you we were suppose to be friends
Who would of thought that I would love you in the end?
We talked and talked until we got to know each other in a way that no one would
You are so cute the way that you smile
Your eyes looking into mine makes me want to kiss you every time
The way that you hold me at night makes me feel like I am floating in the air
It all just feels so right to be next to every single second of the day
Your love lights up my life and when I am down it lights up the stars in the night.
I promise to love you in every way that I can and to be by your side in every way.
You just make me feel like the luckiest girl in the world to have you as a boyfriend.
From now until forever I will always love you my dear (:
ILOVEYOUBABY, LIMWEIXUAN <33333
I'll always remember our date alright, Laughs.&& That is 28 September 2009, 8.42pm.



To: Felicia Tham Mun Yee Sister <33333

Sister, whenever my life feels empty,
Those times when I feel a lack,
I thank God for your special sistership,
Because I know you've got my back.
When I wonder about life's true meaning,
And whether it all makes sense,
With a word or a smile from you, sister,
I forget my silly laments.
I guess what I'm trying to say, sister,
Is with all your support and your giving,
You brighten each minute I'm with you,
And make every day well worth living.
Whether the day is good or bad,
Whether I'm feeling happy or sad,
If I have a need, you’ll comprehend;
You’ll be there i know sister.
Other people may fill my day,
But never in such an important way.
It feels so good that we are sister (:
We share so much of our lives
Our joy and also our pain.
Without you as my sister,
I just might go insane!
You know what I’m talking about,
You’ve been through big things, too.
Yet you cheer me when I’m happy,
You comfort me when I’m blue.
Your giving does not go unnoticed,
I’d be lost without you, sister.
What we have together,
No one else can comprehend.
I always dreamed someone swell would turn up,
Who’d consider my feelings routinely,
Who would share lots of stuff without being gruff,
And if they disagreed would not do it meanly.
Then you came along and my wishes came true.
You’re a sister who I trust and I treasure.
You always give help and I know that you care,
You’re my best sister i've ever had and it gives me great pleasure :D
ILOVEOUSISTER <33333

TO: FIONA LIM YUNRU SISTER & BABYANDREW DADDY :DDD

Last long eh sister & daddy ! Haha.
Glad to see that your are so sweet and such a lil loving ones :D
&& Thanks sister & daddy for coming to school and fetch me when your are free ! Loveyoubothmany-many !!!
Seeyousoonmanppl &&& sisters ((((:



THATS ALL I GUESS {{:
Shall post again soon.

Labels: I love you my dear romeo. Muacks.

Pictures Of The Day :DDDDD









Time to face reality & Will be waiting !

&& To Felicia Tham Mun Yee Sister:

Sis, dont because of a guy do all those things can ? Dont be like my oldself. I've been through alot of hurtful experieces & i dont wish to see you become in this state. Do you know how heartbroken we all sisters were just now when we received your messages ? As what we've said to each other before, guys are nothing to us ! They are not that important than our families, sisters, friends & studies. Each of us have an Mr.Right which god had find for us. Therefore, all we can do is to wait for ou Mr.Right to appear infront of us. No point do all those thing for a guy whom is not your Mr.Right isnt it. I know you & steven had many memories & i can tell you both love each other alot. I also know you had given steven many chances even he did you so many wrongs. But sis, since you've decided to have a break-up then no point do all those things just because of him. I as your sister do not wish to see you in this state. Really, it will only upset me. Sister, if there's anything, sort it out with steven properly. If you both are meant to be together you'll be. If not meant to be together, no mater how much your do also no point de. Sister, i just wants you to remember this, no matter what, we sisters will always be by your side forever ! No matter the ups or downs, we'll still stand by your side to support you :DDD Loveyou! Sis, remember this, do not ever do any foolish things because of guys as it is really not worth it at all. When we girls cried for them, does they know & did they even bothered ? I doubt so. Sis, cheer up okay. I believe you can find a better guy. TRUST ME (: Muacks, muchlove.

Darrius Sia, My Love ?.

Hey love, i know this time i've really gotta face up to reality. As what i've said whats meant to be yours will always be yours. But whats not meant to be yours will never gonna be yours. You said to me that we shall wait & see how thing goes, therefore i told myself not to give you any pressure. I also wouldnt give myself any stress too cause i'm only concentrating more on my studies & my family. Also, if really there's any girl whom really treat you better than i do, please let me know. I'll let you go silently. I dont deny i've really been heartbroken after seeing how much changes in you than before. I've been asking why did things turn out this way ! Firstly, i was really sick & tired of everything. I really wanted to give it all up. But i kept telling myself not to, i must hang in there. All these while i believe you knows that i'm hurt & in pain but you seems not to care. Until today what you've told me, i really felt guilty for doing all those silly stuffs that actually made you think back of your past & your phobia. All those words you've said to me, i've not forgotten any of it. I even reflected myself many times & finally i'm glad to say that i've changed. Its not because of you but its because of myself. I totally agree with what you says. You said to you, girl meant nothing to you & right now, the same goes to me, boys meant nothing to me. But i dont know why ever since i know you, everything changed. But i will let natural take its course. I'm unlike other girls who kept clinging onto you & doing all those crazy acts which is not even on their right minds. Yes, you did hurt me but its alright. I dont mind. Because loving a person have to learn to forgive & forget. & Basically, i dont blame you is because i'm to be blame for the whole cause of it. If i did not do all those stupid acts at your house, things werent to be in this current state. So who am i to blame but only myself. Thats all i wanna say it all out to you. Currently Melancholy. Sicked & Tired Of This. Should i give up ? Maybe or perhaps i should. Forget it !




In Confusion.

I guess i'm going back to my oldself because i feels that i'm so much happier in the past & as if like i'm stress free. But now its totally different. I wonder why things will end up into this state ? Really, i wished to know the answer. Sigh. Oh god, i really pray that you could make my life so much easier & not having any sadness & stress anymore. I guess i'm depressed more than enough too. I'm really sick & tired of everything. && Now, all i hope is that my sister, FELICIA THAM MUN YEE, could find a better guy whom can give her real happiness & not just lies & empty promises. Guess thats all :DDD

Labels: Hope things will get better for me :D Will be waiting.

Gees, the picture above is kinda quite long ago. No new picture currently as i'm lazy to take. Hahas !
Well, its time to update you guys about what had happened isnt it ? Laughs.

To Hecken:

I keep thinking but I still cannot figure out any words for you so that you'll come back, im really trying hard not to let this bother me but. I don't know. I really dont know. For the days when we were still together & days after we had just broke off, i've been waiting for miracles to happen. I've been praying to god & hope he could create miracles for me as he's the only one could do that ! But...Sigh ): I meant seriously. I guess its time i shall says everything from the bottom of my heart. No point deceiving myself. I'm really sick & tired of the triangle r/s. Really sick & tired, For the goodness sake ! Now i've finally seen your true colours. I dont regret doing & buying all those things for you because i'm glad that i'm doing my part as a girlfriend. But sadly to say that when we're together in the past, you dont even seems to be my boyfriend. But oppositely, your family were the ones who'd cared so much just for me. They had made an effort & trying ways & means just to salvage our r/s. But what about you ? All you did was nothing but mapling. Did you even spare a thought for me ! You ask yourself. You said you dont even loved me, then what for act till like one in the first place ! Hey come on, do you think its funny ? I dont think so. & You said we're over isnt it ? Well, over means over already. & Over means you go your own way & i goes my own way. But apparently, it seems like its not over. When i'm still with you, you'd made me deeply hurt. & When we'd broke off but remained as friends, your so called JULIANA still wants to agitate me yeahs ! Hey, dont be too much la seriously. My tolerance have its limit okay. I dare to say right now, i dont even intend to forgive & forget about what that bitch Juliana had done to me behind my back because she dont deserves any sympathy from me ! I guess she's just acting innoncent whom as if she dont knows everything. But sadly to say that she's not innoncent at all ! There are times i really wonder why did i do so much things just for you when you dont even seems to appreciate it. I also wonder why did i love you so much when you doesnt seems to cherish me. But well, its all over this time i know. There's no turning back. But its alright. Because i feels better this way too as i wont be feeling like i'm carrying such a big heavy burden on me. I tired, real tired. You wrote till its all my fault & i'm as if playing the bad role, but pls use your freaking brain & think calmly. What for i go bother your so-called current gf right now. She say you believe, then what if she ask you eat shit you also go la is it ?!?! Boy, come on la. You aint any younger. You are already 18 this year. Therefore i believe you also know la, would i be so childish to go find her just because of our triangle r/s ? Of course not ! Its obviously other things which you might not know & you dont have the need to know i guess. Lols, tell your gf this la ! I, Stephanie Tan Shi Ya, says this " If you have guts to do all those things to me & said about me, then please have the guts to face all consequences. You can even say till back-ups everything until you macham sibei ehsai like that ehs ! Please do not be a coward alright. " Lols. Therefore i now want you to know, i've totally given up hope on you ! So dont keep having the assuption always whenever i & juliana got things to sort out with. & This time, you've no say if i really go find juliana because it doesnt involve with you. But one advice to you la. Open your big eyes & see what kind of person she is ba. To me, juliana is a hypocrite !

To:Yiling (Juliana's Friend)

I dont care & dont bother knowing what she'd eventually said things to you. But one thing i'm for sure is that you dont have the need to be involve in this thing. If you says you'd enough of me then come find me then. Lols. When i & hecken are together, she's dz gf. & End up what happen ? You should know yeahs, i dont have the need to say it too straightforward. As what i've said to juliana the last time before hecken & i broke up, i dont blame her for loving hecken because i know love cant be controlled by just you & i clinging onto each other. But its our felings right form the bottom of our heart. Therefore i dint pursue the matter much any further. I let natural take its course. But when hecken & i had broke off, i know she's been contacting chingying asking things all about me. I know all that. But i kept quiet. Because i've no time entertaining your these & that. I still have a pending case & dont wish to bother anymore things regarding juliana & hecken unless its hecken's mum contacting me. But until chingying told me that juliana & her friends had been backstabbing me behind my back, i admit i'd turn really insane by then. Therefore, its she & her friends forced me into this state. & Also la, if you not happy with me or thinks i'm at fault when eventually i'm not, then come straight to me & let me know. Lols. Also, you said i making things big ? Laughs, as what i've said, she forced me to. & I wont be able to make things into this state or make things big provided if she never do all those things behind my back right from the start. Aint i'm stating the facts & being reasonable ? Well to me, i think i'm being reasonable. If she can do all those things to me, then she must be able to face the music all by herself. She is not a kid therefore i assume she does have a brain to think on the right mindset yeahs. Since she can says all those things which isnt the facts about me to others, then she should face the consequences. I'm just being fair & reasonable alright for the goodness sake. If you still have any more enquires regarding about her & my problem, feel free to come to me straight. I'm more glad to let you people know what kind of person she is. I already said very clearly, if you people whom are also her friends think i'm bullying her or what, then so be it. I wont give a damn. Because thats just all of your thinking & your mindset, not mine. I only trust evidence & my eyes. So if you guys are still unhappy with me or whatever, then come to me then. I shall wait for you guys. Thats all.

Life Is Indeed A Tragedy.



I broke down emotionally today. Really. I doesnt know what the hell had happened to me. I'm really at a loss of words. After what we all sisters had finally said our words right from the bottom of our hearts, i eventually broke down immediately. I really miss the past. All the while, its my sisters whom were there for me. When i'm in help, they would lend me their helping hand willingly & immediately without a second thoughts. I swear i love them the best ! Sisters, i had a great time with you people today. & Also i would like to wish my daddy whom is steven & also john "HAPPY 21 BIRTHDAY :D"


I really don't know if you people have ever felt like that. That you did not ever exist in this world at all. Sometimes i really wished to know why does god create me in this world ? Sigh.




Broke Down.


Tears falling down my cheek,
whats happening to me?
I used to be so strong,
but lately I feel so weak.
all the stress brings me down,
It gives me no choice,
I cant seem to speak my mind,
I just can't find my voice.
more cuts end up on my wrist,
something else I got to hide,
besides the smile I used to have,
but now it's hid behind,
the other part of me,
the person I pretend to be,
so you dont see my tears,
I fight all my fears,
I can't show emotion,
so I store it all inside,
but It builds up,
I breakdown,
I have to cut myself to let it all out.
The pills numb my pain,
puts the stress off to the side,
and when I bleed it all out,
I feel better inside.


I Guess Thats All Just For Now (:
Take Great Care Yeahs Peeps.

Labels: I'm daddy's lil girl. In Affliction.

| July 2008 | August 2008 | September 2008 | October 2008 | November 2008 | December 2008 | January 2009 | February 2009 | March 2009 | May 2009 | June 2009 | July 2009 | August 2009 | September 2009 | October 2009 | November 2009

♥Sweet Links♥

Abigail
♥Audrey
♥Deborah
Ahjess
Amelia
♥♥♥Amy
Angeline
♥Babymantha
BabyTears
Beeting
Babymunkie
Bettina
Bbing
♥Cassandra
Cheryl
Cheryl
Chingying
Cindy
♥Claudia
Cynthia
♥Diona
♥Devil
Dyin Yin
Elysia
Esther
♥♥♥FionaLim
Geraldine
Gillian
♥Guigui
♥Grace
♥GracePeh
Hecken
Hiromi
Jacia
Janice
Janessa
Jesselyn
Jiaer
♥♥Jiali
♥Jingmei
♥Joanne
♥Joey
Joleen
♥♥♥Jovin
♥♥♥Joy
Joyce
Joycelyn
Junle
♥Kailee
♥Kailing
♥KarenGoh
Kaori
Kiki
♥Kitty
Keiko
♥Liying
♥Lewei
Lynn
Mabel
♥♥♥Magdeline
Mamato
♥Marilyn
♥♥Meiling
Meiting
Nancy
♥Priscilla
Pearline
♥Pearlyn(nana)
Qianhui
Qiyuan
Rachel
Renee
Samantha
Sasa
Serene
♥Shanice
♥S.Shermin
Sherlynn
Shirley
Shuhui
??Sipei
Sihui
Shirley
Stephanie
Sujena
Vivianah
Weeliang
Weijing
♥♥♥Xueting
♥♥♥XiaoBaby
Xiaocherr
♥Xiaodrea
XiaoGenie
Xiaojess
Xiaomable
Xiaotommy
Xiuyan
Xiaoyang
Xiaorong
Xueli
Yanfen
Yukie
Yuye
Yvonne
Yiling
Yiru
Zhiling


Basecodes: ??
Designer: ?
Images: ?