Hahahahas:DDDD Mom bought a Coach Wallet for me just now ((: I took a picture of it && its just above. Gees, Thanks mom for buying me the wallet. She's a great mom, i swear ! && Nowhere could i ever find a mom like her. Hahahas {{: I feel so fortunate when she's around because she's the one whom always give me the courage to live on. Really ! Without her, i do not know how things will be like for me. I don't know whats gonna happen, how am i gonna cope, i don't even dare to think about it. All i know is that without her, there would be no me. Her love, her attention, her guidance, have made me who i am. Without her, i would be lost, wandering aimlessly, without direction or purpose. Without her, there would be an empty space i could never fill, no matter how i tried. Instead, because of her, I have joy, contentment, satisfaction and peace. Yes, although sometimes i find her naggy as she whines alot at me && even though we often quarrels, i still love her (: Hahahahas, i just love her the most :DDDDDD <33
Is It Time For Me To Let Go ?? Its Hard.
SLEEPLESS NIGHTS, Paranoid.
Well, you guys must be wondering what had happen over the past few days isnt it ?
Sigh, first of all i would like to say that many things had afflicted much agony into my life. All these while i've been getting more emotional than before, i mean seriously speaking yeahs. I really want to pour everything out, i swear !!! I was pondering about what went wrong to let things end up like this. All these while, i've lain awake many sleepless nights && through the nights, i've been wondering why cant i just be like my old-self ? I've been thinking about my past. When i thought back of my past, i find it ridiculous too. Back then, almost everyday i've been in high spirits & not like now. I've been telling my friends to think of the positive sights & not the negative sights. But for me, i just cant. Ridiculous isnt it ? Sigh. My life is totally meaningless right now, it isnt as awesome as you people think. People says in life there's always ups & downs. I totally agree too ! But why there isnt any ups in my life but always the downs. Sigh. Currently, pondering many whys in my mind. I really want to cry it all out. You may see me struggle but you wont see me fall. Regardless if I'm weak or not, I'm going to stand tall && stay strong. Everyone says life is easy but truly living it is not. Times get hard, people struggle & constantly get put on the spot. I'm going to wear the biggest smile even though I want to cry. I'm going to fight to live even though I'm destined to die. But its rather hard for me to accomplish that. Sigh. Now i'm like walking in the shadow of fear, drowning endlessly by a single tear, running along side of self-discovery, fearing the loss of self- recovery, parts of mind going unknown, dangerous sides going unshown. && So i told myself that one day you will eventually die, so why not make everything right before dying. I really felt myself totally incomplete as if something's missing right now ! && Thats Love, Care & Concern. && Now, my life really sucks. But for the future, i'm unsure. Everything is hard to say. There's many possibilities in this world. Life is a carousel. Always going forward, never going back. When all others retreat, we must prevail. We are the conscious inside our head. We create our own destiny. && As we get older, our life becomes a challenge. So from now onwards, i must often remind myself look to the future && not to the past, even though its hard. But i bet it wont work this way cause its impossible for me to do till that extend of not look back to the past. Sigh. Paranoid, Shag, Emotional, Sorrowful, Disappointment && Melancholy !!
Lastly but not the least, I'm really thankful to have Xiaobaby=Felicia Tham Mun Yee as my dearest sister ! I swear. She's the one whom is always with me when i'm feeling low & down. She's the one whom had given me any good advices & guidance. All those things she'd done for me, its similar to my mom. Therefore i say she can be my second mom && she deserves my love & care :DDDD Sister, thanks alot. Also chill mans ((: As I think of our sistership, I begin to see mere words can't describe what you mean to me.When this cold, hard world has me lonesome and blue, I look up to see my angel, my sweet angel, you.You dry the tears that fall from my eyes.You bring me sunshine to brighten my sky.You rescue me when I'm scared and alone. &&& take my hand to lead me home.No matter the miles that keep us apart, we're always together in each other's hearts.If ever you felt I forgot or didn't care, Let me stop right now, my true feelings I'll share.You're the sun in my sky, the bed where I lie.You're the home where I'm safe, the field where I play.You're everything I am, everything I do.So what I am saying is I LOVE YOU sister ! (((: Arent you touched ? Hahahahas :DDDD
&& TO OTHER SISTRS, ( XIAOBEE, NANA, JOVIN, JOY, FIONA, SIPEI, MAGDELINE, YVONNE, SHERILYN, BOBO ) Love you girls too :DD
Also to Sherilyn & Xiaobee Sis:
Takecare while inside okays. I'll wait for your no matter what ((:
Loveyour.
Its Time For Me To Bid-Farewell Now :DDD